I've been taught that I should just accept fate and give up. I was taught that the things I want will happen as long as I sit around and think about it; money never ends, and yet we never had it in abundance. I grew up around self-deprecating negativity, as well as toxic positivity. I … Continue reading Unlearn The Lessons
Feel better after being productive, editing a vlog and such. One vlog closer to success. Another vlog closer to our (me and my husband) dreams coming true. A step further into the world that is separated by an abstract boundary; that between dreams and reality. And another contributor to erasing that boundary. No dreams are … Continue reading Like a Baby, I Explore and I Succeed
My farm life so far has had many ups and downs. Amongst the downs, the main one is opposition and critique from members of my family, who also live on the farm. While I don’t care much about their - at times uneducated - opinions, it puts a serious strain on my motivation. Admitting it … Continue reading When you don’t give up, you find treasures. But you will also suffer.
I sometimes want to not care. When I don't get the attention I crave, I want to not give a shxt about it and the person not giving me it. Yes, I called him my beloved husband a couple of hours ago, but there are times when my excessive neediness gets the best of me; … Continue reading Farming as a Distraction + My Mixed Feelings About Egg Production
But that doesn’t phase me. I’ve learned languages before, and even though I’m getting older and dumber, I feel like I can do it. What is like learning a new language? Well, it could be many things, but the specific one I’m referring to is farming and business. So, two things, I guess. A couple … Continue reading It’s Like Learning A New Language
I’ve previously mentioned some unexpected costs that came with buying bees, but recently I have come to realize that growing vegetables comes with its own “unexpected” costs… I used quotation marks, because the things in themselves weren’t unexpected, but the cost was something I didn’t think much about other than it being some abstract number … Continue reading More Unexpected Costs
Not so easy. Not easy at all. So, I have two youtube channels which I'm trying to grow at the same time. One of them is more important than the other, but I spend more time on the less important one. One is a fitness channel and the other is about my new farm/homestead. It's … Continue reading Determining My Focus – Deciding Who I Am??
So, this is probably the case for anything, and that's why this post is relevant to anyone. Perhaps the valuable lessons I've learned can be helpful for you as well, if nothing else than as a gentle reminder. Recently, I moved to a small farm, and as the season is finally beginning, things are happening. … Continue reading The constant tweaking and adjusting
Today I got 2 new subscribers on my fitness channel. My initial reaction was “yay!!”, but then… probably just a few minutes later, I felt negative emotions creeping up to the surface. Why? Where did they come from? And what were they about? I was filming my 50 subs splits special when I started thinking … Continue reading Identifying And Getting Through Psychological Barriers + Farm Updates
Every so often, especially in these fast-paced days, we humans find ourselves hurrying towards goals. We’re almost running to get there. "Abs In 7 Days, 14 Days To Six Pack, Lose Fat In 3 Days!" Those aren't titles of specific videos or anything, but I think you know what I mean when I say these … Continue reading The World Doesn’t Go Anywhere